psychological transformation process @ KP

personal reflections on the energetic/systemic patterns of the psychological transformation process embedded in the KP eduction

as 6pages .pdf here, 2pages-version as .doc here

I want to share some of my reflections on the “psychological transformation process” (Indy Johar) that i see taking place in young people going through the KaosPilot education. This is based on my perception of energetic/systemic patterns and archetypal symbols in the social field of KP in an evolutionary/spiritual context of consciousness development. Some of it will speak rather from what i see growing in myself and what the world and KP is evolving into, as where it is already now – i see KP as one of the strongest manifestations in the world when it comes to the things i will point out, but it does not embody all of them fully… yet, nor consciously. I guess it will need to be codified onto other levels to work with it, but i trust it is meaningful to share some mental clusters from my inner landscape.

Let me offer a piece of melodramatic text i spoke in a project exam last year in the context of general KP reflections: “You are experienced project leaders and you know about the journeys that groups of KaosPilots are on when they dance through the projects that the school is giving them. You know that by putting a group of young leaders into this spaceships, powerful learning will happen – shaping the individual in the collective and shaping the collective through evoking the individual. The simple notion of declaring the whole experience of this incubator as a learning field causes a tremendous acceleration of personal development. The group is unfolding a self-exposure momentum in its members… a burning platform for everyone’s growth. Shadows coming to light, wounds getting healed, others get cut. Learning in practice and feel the desire to do better. Pushing the edges of feedback in intense situations is leading us into an authentic culture of being and learning together. Broadening horizons in bottlenecks, sustainable enough to leave imprints in your core character.” Speaking in spiral dynamics terms from the transition of the green meme to the yellow meme i want to offer an image that i have been seeing on my inner eye. In the green meme we are/were sitting in a circle facing inwards, we made decision together in consensus and are all equal. The downsides of that is obviously the loss of complex ideas that individuals bring in but can’t be held in the level of consciousness of the group as it is pointing outside of the known territory – so “the group” (sub)consciously honors the idea as an expression from a free and equal individual, but rejects the un-understandable impulse when it comes to converging phases through voting and agreement mechanisms. In the yellow meme the circle is facing outwards and the individual has it’s full playground ahead – supportive/holding energy is flowing in the circle and we are there for each other. The personal confidence is sourced from a deeper ground and is not expected to be re-affirmed through appreciation in every single interaction. When i told Maria Scordialos (AoH steward) about this she confirmed the image and added a ring of elders around the circle facing outwards – in the turquoise meme they will take care that the net is woven well, so they are not so much focused on you but protect what you are needing to do, “they mend the net which gets broken no matter what, sometimes by your own selves in your desire to make something happen, ambition, thinking we know what needs to be done, etc.” (Maria) So the evolutionary inquiry is to explore how we can boost our individuality by being together! “I don’t understand what you are doing, but i trust my inner knowing and we are mates so i support you no matter what – and i am glad i don’t understand, because it means working with you on this will broaden my horizon.” It is about embracing the whole hedgehog and smiling about the massage through the many prickles. In the KP field one of the strongest values is diversity! From day one we get encouraged to see the value of a diverse team and how it is preparing us best for reality if we have our strongest opposer in your team for three years. We start to see that the team is missing out on an unique perspective when someone is not present. We celebrate our conflicts with a smile on our faces saying “how fascinating”. We get the assignment to build observing groups for the admission workshop (selecting a new team) with maximum diversity in order to ensure a fair discussion about the applicants afterwards – the group-building process becomes a fun marketplace of trading characters; “we need an introvert in our group”, “can we have one more too-much-space-taking person in our group?”, which leaves a reflective notion of peoples and ones own character qualities as a resource ready to distribute accordingly… honoring the individual AND utilizing/empowering it as a resource. New teams are build based on maximizing diversity (= maximum conflict potential in the team).

An attitude that i find strongly present and atmospherically encouraged is the processing of multiple threads simultaneously. The field will give you a feeling that its good to juggle many balls and improve your skills in doing so. Besides the lecturing program the students are in self-organized “ongoing project groups” , “learning groups”, party preparation, and private jobs.

Similar to the perseverance someone shows going to the gym to see outcomes in a few months, there is an attitude of training oneself in being mentally able to hold many strings and organize ones energy around it. There is a crucial threshold to overcome though – because telling someone that this is good to do training in “because” usually doesn’t activate enough motivation to do so – so there is motivational gap to fill before the system is carrying itself when the training starts to pay back and the feeds thereby motivation back. In the KP culture this gap get’s filled with tying the rising and failing of the individual to the very social relationship of your mates – if i stay home my team is missing out of my perspective / if i am pulling out of this group work they have to work more / if i am not helping with this party a whole other team might get disappointed / i am doing it for the group / if i am not doing this job it’s not the school that i get punished by, it’s my friends who are disappointed with me… this being sad it’s also important to acknowledge that there is a collective attitude to a certain degree of whoever is showing up are the right people and who stays at home will have reasons to do so. Eventually what this multi-processing training is breeding is a light operating system in the students – as the flow rate of tasks and inquiries is increasing the structure that holds this needs to decrease and become smooth. Like a google chrome browser processes and tasks are running in tabs that don’t affect other’s (certainly not always true in life) when one crashes and the systems learns to “suggest addresses” based on the history. And then there is of course a meta-symphony that will very much color the whole browser at once and can cause the system to accelerate, crash or other funny fluctuations. Again, through the constant invitation of the field to self-reference all what you learn about process you start to be able to be fully present with all your senses in the moment AND be able zoom so far out of the system that you can see your own inner movements of emotions and thoughts as being part of other flows in the system. You start to see your own memories as resources and not as burdens, you start to see your dreams and opinions as motivators or inspiration and not as attachments. You find yourself thinking – if i am frustrated to the bones, could i give my last breath of happiness to make a happy person even happier? just to see what happens, just to challenge the convention of balance and equality, just to give the self-recovery function of my system a chance to scratch me from the floor and rebuild myself new. just to play on life’s playground with serious intentions and a strong bright heart…. You find yourself pulling out of a group that you initiated just because you feel the constellation is more powerful without you – you know that impulse and creation can very well be the same source in a system, but does not need to be. You have a commitment to the highest energy in a moment, in a constellation, you want to foster alive energy flows – and when that means attracting rough criticism through provocation on yourself because that is what the system needs to be liberated than you go for it. When you find someone crying on the ground you cancel all your To-Do’s and are in service of your friend because you sense something big is shifting inside and it needs a hand from outside. Your inner eye can see years and decades ahead and you know that consciously working on inner processes is one of the best investments you can do for your evolutionary family. You know about the world situation, you look through what media tells us and understand the political, economical and social dynamics that are in play because you are honest enough to find all of them inside yourself too and can tackle the worlds challenges sourced by the transformation of your inner mirror of the world. You share your thoughts freely because you know that sharing is the new owning and that a free flow of information is setting the best conditions for emergence. Another term that ties for me into the multi-processing is “self-provoking” – the notion “challenge yourself” is extremely present in the field and i know for myself that i have very much internalized that. I know my fears, i know what “burning platforms” i need to stand on to grow beyond my fears and i am holding the intention of almost tricking myself onto those. We are aware that we have three years together in a ‘intimate’ and safe team-container that serves us as playground – so over time people will eventually start to use the chances they get, but it takes time to realize that barriers that you thought were there are actually not there. One of many way to source this notion to it’s conditions is that through the vast amount of feedback we give each other the energy of “i can fix it easier in others outside of me than inside me” eventually experiences a back-loop where you have to admit to yourself that there is no reason to not use the same energy actively on yourself. Otherwise people will point on your lacking integrity as you reach into their sphere without applying it to yourself. Going through the KaosPilots is like listening to a participatory symphony – this weeks feeling will be universes apart from next weeks feeling, there are endless opportunities in the next 3 hours, i am another person in the evening than i was in the evening. It’s not about setting one hour aside for a brainstorming, it’s about whirling up as many material as possible to make one strong move of running through and assembling the right pieces into a piece of art in the last minute of the hour, where no sense of direction was present just until then. And while the group is cheering and laughing you maintain a sharp ear and listen loud to the weak signals, to what is actually going on and what comes next – “after the hype is before the hype” (Simon Ulvund). Capacity building for a longer breath is key here, i know that the playlist of email-check, shower and coffee in the morning sets me up for a start into the day – what is the “playlist” i can sense in other contexts over longer periods, in what wave are we right now? What song comes next for the group? Can you sit in the embarrassing silence without filling it just to fill it? A fantastic and simple mechanism that amplifies the “learning by copying and repelling” is that we constantly get new lectures in who get briefed from the team leader, but have no clue what our energy level is, what we are looking for in their behavior, what buzzwords we get triggered by and so on. It’s almost like exposing the lectures as fresh meat to the students for them to build an opinion about their skills – and we are like wild tigers when it comes to scouting for good or bad process leader skills, how we would have preferred this or what was good and so on. So besides consciously witnessing ones own growth (optionally “milestoned” by regular guidance session and certainly self-observed in contact with family and non-KP friends over time) and the growth of the team members there is constant raw and unbiased raw material to learn from. For lectures certainly one of the most challenging environments to be in as they will eventually been seen from students who are able to see and express the wound spots behind the expert mask – that’s why it is so attractive and maybe courageous to lecture at the KP, it’s a special challenge. Sometimes it feels like a never-ending laundry where constant stimulus and experiences are molding and are being molded by a reciprocal game between the individual and the collective, the insider and the outsider and the doing vs. the thinking… like stones getting carried along in river-beds and getting shaped – the constant penetration through the field is shaping out the essence of a human being and nothing remains to work with but the pure inner core, naked on stage in a trusted circle of friends who want you to take the next step. But other than the stones in the river who loose their corners and become round, the KP student get’s both, more round and integrated and more extreme in his/her personal qualities. It seems the field is set up in a way where everyone attracts exactly the challenges he/she needs to grow on the personal leading edge. And that is because no one gives it to them, but the mechanism of self-exposure to challenges and a longing for initiation that is inherent in every human being get’s liberated and empowered. Another important ingredient in the KP field is the cross-team culture and the ceremonies we create for each other. Various activities like cross-team dinners, terrace power mingling, playing days, welcoming parties, pay-back parties, christmas parties and cross-team sparring are weaving a very interesting social field at school that is characterized by a feeling of a big family, a high level of support and also healthy ignorance of someone deeply in his own process that shows you that it’s not all about your personal up’s and down’s. A pattern that confused me very much in the beginning but have much higher understanding for now, is the reaction of a smiling “you will find out soon enough” when students below your year ask you what to expect of a certain module. It comes from a knowing that the process unfolds best when being thrown in without expectations or stories from others that overshadow the pure experience of what it is for you. So the slightly evil grin that foresees the upcoming frustration in the ‘young apprentice’ comes from a deeper ground of support and protecting integrity by not sharing ones own perspective too early… well, and sometimes just by being bored with same questions over and over again – so boredom can serve as a great systemic mechanism. And on the receiving end of the not-sharing it eventually builds an attitude of stepping into the unknown with deeper trust and a bold curiosity. The theme parties are a genius way to unleash archetypal shamanic initiation-thinking with mainstream themes like movies or time-vibes. To build a ceremony over many steps leaping into a climax and resolved in a hell of a party in a co-creational circle-leadership way really takes something. And again the driver is to “give the new team a great experience”. “How can we support the new team to be better than ourselves”, “What does knowledge sharing actually mean”, “What are the do’s and don’ts we want to handover to them”. Several breaths of evaluation and feedback hardly leave any perspective unreflected and builds multi-facetted eyes for everything. One thing that i realize while typing all this done – is that this systemic creature of KP seems so genius and intelligent to me that i guess (or even hope) no one can overview it all. The thoughts i share are based on my experience and the current vibe in the school and in my team. years before and years after it will be totally different. It is an evolving organism. So i truly truly look forward how my own perspective on KP is evolving as i am gather’s more experiences – and there is a longing in me to learn more about the conditions that such a system needs to be in to thrive so wild and gorgeous. Frustration is key, being down in the valley of unknown and time pressure will make you grab that book and read about that tool/model, and it will make sense because you gratefully dip that structure into the hot raw material in front of you and you see it crystalizing into meaning! In my first year our team leader stopped us in the first really ugly discussion we had and invited us to feel the feeling we have in our stomach and said; “this is a hopeless discussion – can you feel it in your stomach? you need to be able to feel it. watch out for this feeling, whenever it occurs you can stop the discussion and try something else.” Being thrown into the situation of having to start a project as a team of 35 without any structure from the outside other than a time-frame creates some serious intense dynamics – but it’s so so valuable to start from white space and witness the process all the way from building a structure in which to work and then all the frictions and solutions on the way up to the day of the presentation. Another pattern that accelerates the “psychological transformation” is to witness ones co-students processes and growth over the years. There is nothing that is more effectively showing you what’s possible than seeing it lived through right in front of you – it melts down the barriers of what you thought stops you. A resonance container for facing ones challenges and “suffering”/dancing through them. It can reach a level where i can foresee a piece of sadness or emptiness coming up in me and my intuition leads me to share this feeling with someone who is about to enter into sadness – by being faced with my fully unfolded sadness he get’s the choice to say yes or nor to his own one. So while being in the process myself i can also choose to give my resonance as a gift to someone and see what happens – i can offer a clarity of expression that causes something. Seeing your friends around you jumping will eventually make it inevitable that you jump as well. [ … ] Some patterns as list, yet to be formulated and put into context:


  • Seeing people party around you while you have to focus on your task – builds capacity in controlling the energies of focusing and letting loose in you.


  • Appreciating becomes deep seeing.


  • Connecting to root – coming up with structure yourself.


  • Catalyzing great qualities in interdisciplinary teamwork through the social translator ability that grew in the diverse environment


  • the value of going out of the KP environment to experience the new that grew in you


  • the bounce of individual and group – being in so many various group constellations is flexing social muscles when it comes to group identity


  • a healthy relationship to authorities through very human contact -> builds capacity to honor natural authority AND knowing about the value of playing a role sometimes


  • deep seeing of each other’s potential, extrapolating the trajectory of your development, maintaining a heart-connection to access each other’s resources. care for each other, follow-up on a personal level


  • being part of a process that you lead, different hats on, seeing my own qualities as resources in the pool just like others


  • play with and challenge conventions, not depending on them


  • attitude of “flirting with the world” – ok, this didn’t work, then let me try something else – there is absolute no value in blaming a group, it’s only an invitation to try another angle. penetrating the world with your will to manifest creations. courageous curiosity


  • resilience and perseverance


  • deeper ground, wide soul in their eyes


  • it’s more challenging to facilitate a KP team than 100 other people because of the radical learning field, feedback, evaluation


  • sensing where the impulse should naturally occur in the system, where is the energy


  • celebrating conflicts, getting energized about the heat of interpersonal friction


  • social return on social investment


  • regular whole-day character-feedback sessions in small groups trains to offer feedback as a gift but not being attached to how much it resonates. the person giving feedback and tying it to a memory builds a little story that can go it’s own way and can fall easily in love with overweighting some symbols in it…


  • the vibe amongst the Alumni


what i feel is missing in the field:


  • expression of a healthy divine feminine


  • maturity around love and sexuality


  • group organisms to build greater discipline in their energy levels and to shift them


  • an appreciation of expanding consciousness through observing and letting the matrix of your observation being widened by a mentor who see’s more and let the experience next time fill more of the expanded matrix. Developing of consciousness through story telling instead of turbulent chaos merry-go-round. (free after Jon Young, mentoring/observing skills in nature awareness)


Benjamin Aaron Degenhart, Team16, student in 2nd year, September 2010


and then two weeks later i had this short piece of tuning into questions that Paul (KP staff, very much respect him) put out into the space to deepen into the field after reading my text:

What are the mechanisms that will keep the system from falling into narcissism?

Too late :)  Well, i can speak from two very recent experiences – we had two professional process leaders from the outside coming in to lecture my Team (Zaid Hassan from ReosPartners and Jascha Rohr from the Institute for Participatory Design). Being the strong and intellectually highly potent men they were they took us for what’s there and not for the buzz around KP. I felt that gave a really healthy grounding and slap in the face of our pride and narcissism to hear from Zaid that we weren’t a challenging group to work with at all but really nice guys. So i guess one mechanism is to get in fresh outsiders who dare to cut through the buzz and challenge what is actually there.

What do the students see when sitting in the circle facing outwards?

You are not supposed to know that :) And to a certain degree it shouldn’t be visible for each other either i believe. It is about creating conditions for them to build confidence in what they are seeing there is relevant and their unique gift. There is a language though that gives glimpses into everyones leading edge… it’s art, metaphors and symbols.

What is the ethical dimension in the personal transformation process?

My spiritual ground is to offer myself as an evolutionary tool and in that sense i am inviting all sorts of transforming processes into my life. And yes, i can see how parents could become very skeptical if you would run a marketing campaign about KP that emphasizes on what (can) happen psychologically. Were there cases of serious break-downs or other traumata’s?

Who do you want to become?

For me it comes more natural to think about qualities, values and principles that i am holding while i am on my way of becoming. I certainly want to become more than what i dare to imagine now… i guess :)

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bug spray app and the collective buddha

from my FB note, 14th August 2010

just saw in the iPhone app store an application called “bug spray” that produces high frequent tones through the built-in loudspeakers which is supposed to chase away bugs… these and thousands of other apps in the app stores of apple and google and where they pop up elsewhere are far beyond anything that those companies could breed up in their own creative think tanks! it empowers the masses to innovate wildly… an app store is: a creation that is build to surprise and transcend the creators scope.
you embody areas of expression yoursef (red)
AND you have heart connection to people who embody
others, together it becomes your extended body…
and i believe this is what will happen in other human domains as well – again, computer world is (just) a playground to accelerate evolution and gives us an experience of what connectedness and boundless communication feels like…

or maybe it has always been that way? an individual invents a plattform that enables vast collective creativity to flow in with a multitude of individual expressions…

language is probably the prime example for a system that gives frames and structure so that massively different expression can happen…

we need to hear the invitation to build a system into our extended body [http://bit.ly/chj2bE] – it becomes an area of expression for me, my impulses can flow through it…

a root update is leaning into the collective by it’s nature, it needs the community to be evoked, it keeps leaning into a center which is not yet formed – but by intention and attraction the matrix will be woven to hold the seed in our middle, till then it needs the strength and perseverance to hold the dream up…

time for solo-genius who explains the world might be over. time for “a mushrooming of collective Buddhas” [Helen, http://bit.ly/aD12Qi]

>> And let me tell you about something in my perception and knowing that i would be bold and brave enough to indicate a potential root update as i and others learn to speak it to the collective buddha… i see universal impulses that find expression different forms through the many eyes of the universe that we are; a song, a drawing, a conversation, an euphoric surge, a poem… fractal dynamic patterns are branching of in other domains from every knot and flow and form… there is a language of energies beneath the concrete expression that we see – it’s what makes expert A have a meaningful leading edge conversation with expert B from a total different “profession” that moves the edge for both –  it is a metaphorical understanding of the patterns that are playing out, it is intuitively sensing how a dynamic would prolong in my body, in my mind, in a social body, in a landscape, in the flight of birds… it’s the place where inspiration and creation comes from! it needs full freedom of judging and a liquid seeing through all layers, it needs mental and emotional eyes that can see through… and i can’t breed this out all myself – because i don’t embody all domains of human expression myself (words, dance and weaving are playgrounds for me), i need the collective to fulfill this – so my life journey (as i see it as this stage) is to find ways to explore how i can set the train on the rails… it’s like flirting with the world :) and i don’t want to be understood – i want to understand… only that energy is attractive…

and so on :) smiles…

feeling the dependence on the black blood stream of our society

written from Axladitsa, Greece

Greece has very limited petrol at the moment, the suppliers are on strike for a few days – incredible to feel the immediate dependency as the black blood stream of our society stops!
Expecting anger in people that can turn into violence – but also connectedness and support emerging…
Confusion and fear can overshadow seeing the obvious options.
Mental/emotional/social capacity to hold the tension is key – social fields that can contain this tension and radiate clarity, alignment and connectedness from within that place…
What to do is obvious, decisions are becoming clear and direct as our basic needs are depending on the options we choose: maintaining access to resources – food to eat, water to drink… internet connection??
Grateful to experience this in a place like Axladitsa that is awake, resilient and almost self-sustaining both in practice and in spirit – deep bows to Maria and Sarah!
… more of those places!!
As much as i love being globally connected – seriously guys! times are close where we can not rely on constant supply of electricity and oil! What are YOU able to contribute to your environment the day we have no electricity and no oil?

I read somewhere that all the servers maintaining internet are producing more CO2 than air traffic – whether or not it is true, it’s a horrendous amount. I see a big big invitation here, it is not just plugging out your computer and turning back to local – it is to harvest what we are experiencing online and consciously inform our offline social life with it.
How would the architecture of a facebook post with comments and “likes” look like in a local group setting? “Random” inspiration can be “posted” anytime and the “followers” are hearing it and whoever resonates is adding to it or shows appreciation, the creature is growing in it’s own pace – multiple threads are alive in the space. How does the architecture of Twitter translate into offline space? An email-thread that can be “harsh” in who is in or not because the ones not in don’t even hear about it…
These technologies are literally giving us new opportunities to communicate online and our social brains are growing into these possibilities, our arms are learning to reach beyond our body through the machine and our fingers learn to use the gloves google, facebook and twitter are offering us… what if the machine stops being there, your arms and fingers will remember the movement, let them play in other contexts…
Just as a pilot trains in a flight simulator many times before he get’s to fly for real – i believe the age of computers and online connection has it’s reality in itself AND is teaching our psychic and social muscles how connectedness feels like as we seek to remember it…
It is to use the online time we have to share impulses and learning that is meaningful! You don’t need a highway system when a bumpy mountain road is enough to transport the load… the right impulses will find you. And yes, the free flow platforms we have online are brilliant to connect and bumble bee around, but what if i don’t have to look for new mates myself – what if we can see each other and act on our impulses of connecting our mates – as soon as their social neurons are firing together in your brain there is a spark… and the universe is inviting you to give that a chance…
this some thoughts about the online domain, there are many other domains that hold incredible value when seeing from a perspective on how they can inform and enrich our local resilience and social intelligence…
Yesterday we had the first storm with rain this summer here! Sometimes when i feel those powerful nature forces coming alive i have to take my clothes off and run through the rain on the land – so i did this time. Wet ground under my running feet, wind and thunder around me, raindrops are inducting a fast moving curtain into what was just empty air space before… the rain stops, my lungs are pumping fast, i shift into walking. As i am getting a bit cold for the very first time this holiday in Greece a thought crosses my mind; if building capacity in feeling in larger times and contexts needs to be anchored in the body by practices like somehow storing the heat of the last days in the body to bring it up when it is getting cold… different speeds in our body-system of adaption to environmental changes… some quick like jumping away from a hot cooking plate, some slow as psychic development over decades… is this given or do we have a chance to dive through this different time-dimensions in our system…
As i am walking naked through the wet forest i am feeling both so satisfied about the outbursting wilderness in me in those moments but also an uncomfortable alienation on what a baby i am here, not knowing skills on how to live in nature, build my own shelter, know what to eat and what not… not sure if i would survive in pure nature for long! So asking myself how it would feel if i would feel so rooted and connected being naked in nature as i feel when it comes to the online playgrounds i dance on or other “expert” areas i feel at home. That “pain” of unskilledness i think we should all feel, or at least be able to feel… it is not just another hobby like car-racing or video-games, knowing your way in wilderness is where are coming from and to some degree where we are eventually heading. In me it is a very constructive pain that invites me to learn this things!
Maybe that is a window to transport that message into peoples heart, the analogy to something where you feel really rooted and connected…
Sometimes feeling pain is such a privilege.

Thinking these days about the unknown and the un-understandable… wondering where a deep circle sharing would take us that invites to speak something that probably no one understands. All those areas you left out out of the social space or haven’t found an entry yet because you are too shy for it or feel like couldn’t argue for it or feel like no one could follow you there or feel it would loose integrity if it enters someone else’s mind… a space for those things to be shared and honored in their fragile freakiness or complexity or out-thereness without any pressure of making it understandable… balls that you don’t know how to play with but they are warmly welcome in the space. Media and marketing is massively destroying our perseverance and motivation in tuning into spaces that are not screaming into our faces within 3sec what it is about – we simply turn to the next simple thing or simple thought when there is a weird piece showing up. Echoing what Einstein says about the problem that cannot be solved on the same level of consciousness that created it, and what Luhman says about the only opportunity for a system to grow is to get confused… so i wonder how we are with each other when we are deeply curious about these other universe over there with all that stuff i have no clue what is it about… learning to support without understanding. The gift of attention and appreciation we offer to each other may not have the taste of a closed space, always a window to heaven… the creator needs always to be ready for the creation to transcend his impulse – evolutionary tools and conductors we are for each other…
in service and love,
Benjamin

some spotlights

I collected some of my recent posts on facebook to restart my blog. For your inspiration or confusion… your resonance and dissonance ist most welcome, especially when shared :)

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why assisting a good cook in a stressfull restaurant-kitchen is building organic memory of inner urgency before the storm starts outside: in my time under Rene’s command in the beergarden where i worked in south Germany i was so impressed to experience how he is able to lift the stress-level to prepare food and dishes BEFORE the masses come to order food, so we had a managable amount of tasks IN the tidal wave. I observed in myself the pattern of naturally getting more slow when the high is over, but the true mastery here is to work in rigorous foresight of the coming… and this is really an organic capacity he build up over decades of work in that field and it needs so much PERSEVERANCE… why should i be the storm inside when it’s peaceful outside? -> because it WILL pay back when the storm starts outside…

drawing the line here to coming global crisis in supply of cheap energy, finances and all that – the storm WILL come… but we are somehow still hardwired to only be stressed when there is a reason to be stressed… so cheers to building individual and collective capacity to organically feel urgency NOW…


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a social translator (term by Reinoud) is a person or an entity that conducts meaningful exchange between social ‘silos’

… how can the baker meet the astronaut on the leading edge of personal development and vice versa… as realms of knowledge and skills of humanity are growing far out, also the gaps between grow – and circles are forming with high entrance-threshold… so rising the level of the ‘common denominator’ is the quest for A to learn something from B.

i believe where we will meet on highest possible level is in a metaphorical space, is a language of energies, is talking about the dynamics and patterns we experience… cosmic breath finds it’s expression in many different outgrowths… however there seems to be melody coming along with it that we can hear across and beyond… analogies that are so close to our experience that we call them ‘realogies’… resonating from within… just the final touch of the manifestation will vary from realm to realm…

does this sound fluffy? it may, but it is SO real!! for ANY learning you gain in ANY field, there IS a chain-lightning of associations, metaphoric layers and symbolic potence branching of into other domains of cosmic expression… just about being liquid enough in your consciousness to see it. finding a ‘language’ to share this beyond your silo, and/or translation-instances will pass the impulse on… this is happening anyway since the beginning of time – just to name it and make it a conscious inquiry!

…the cosmic pattern language – also observing your own psychic process of getting motivated or transitioning from anger into sadness… all those dynatterns (dynamic patterns) have brothers and sisters in the social space, in music, in painting in animal and plant world…

and yes, there IS a vertical axe of complexity in this where certain impulses blow up a vastly bigger space in one playground than in another and maybe even birth sub-spaces that can not be found elsewhere… and there IS a danger of scaling up metaphors from one to many… we loose information on the way, the other way is more natural to go, track the collective dynamic back into it’s fractal expression in smaller units…

tuning our senses for this, our perceptional muscles, the new sexy is how many ripples you let your inner ocean take when it get’s a stimulus…


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incredible amounts of energy are caught in unhealthy loops of interpersonal friction -> so here is to to realize that we are standing on a big cosmic evolutionary arrow in our little human conflicts

this is nothing we only have to ‘get clear’ for ourselves, we suffer/celebrate this to feed the information we gain into the field… consciously embracing that little notion of the inside being the outside, what i go through is a service to the larger at the same time… don’t block the gate while you have a conflict with somebody – shout over to each other from the archways so that the stream can still pass and get a chance to receive a gift of process from you guys in your nasty nitty gritty boiling pot :)


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as we build capacity to anchor our emotional/soul-nourishment in larger social and spiritual context we need less and less the current situation ‘urgently’ to satisfy our feeling of being appreciated and hold and seen and understood and all that… this comes easy and natural and is already the base we start from, not the ground we need to re-build all the time…

will this be the time we come together to not seek what we have in common but to seek how we are different and can boost our individuality together even more… standing in a circle facing outwards, warm supportive energy flowing in the back while everyone having a unique playground in front… instad of a circle facing inwards where we need to make decisions together and understand and embrace all that comes into the circle… it needs both i believe – but i am really tired of green-meme energy in circles that want to be equal for the sake of being equal :)

and yes, i understand the process of creating a shared language and having joint experiences/stories/idols and the “getting warm” with each other… but i mean a different ground to become more self-evident, it’s the simple notion of appreciating everyone as unique expression of the universe and starting from that :)


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some day… want to create a gathering with Jasmine that’s purely dedicated to be in dream-space together! all conventions, judgements, procedures, social behaviors are blurred and new forms of interacting are tested as they arrive in curiosity, no expectations of you ending your sentence or “making your point”, we might build the point together…

no need to introduce yourself or ask a polite question back because you were asked something… everything is soul-space and symbol and is meaning-yet-to-be-interpreted, the weak signals, the weird and the not understandable get a sacred space and embraced… “oh nice, i don’t get it… how can it be even more confusing”… no harvest or distilling process… the space is just breeding…


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beyond consensus

[…] you could also say it results from a need of impulses to get ‘confirmed’ (and on the way towards that most often cut down in their expression to the lowest common denominator) by the whole group… and as we grow more mature into trusting the power and unique shape of our impulses we don’t need that confirmation and just go for it – WITH the trust and support of the circle…


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the good cook does not seek to create one taste, the quest is to compose a symphony – there shall be versatile nuances to explore and a whole journey of taste may unfold with letting different islands blossom on your tongue… the meta-tone is rising as sensual memory is flooded

may you be the pool of multiple inputs on various levels, may myriad of potential and lived trajectories source or conduct in the vibrant sea you are. inviting the wisdom of the edge, the ‘Weird’ and the Unknown went to places you haven’t dared to step into – may you pour their energy into you… dare to get soaked, expanding the horizon to whatmore is possible… maintaining to be the one tree with so many leaves… all get touched slightly different by the wind and move in their way, though they give and get to the same trunk with roots and breathe their oxygen into the atmosphere…


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thinking about Biofeedback and how awesome a research lab on Socialfeedback would be… exploring forms of mirrors for a collective to ‘arm’ it with new senses so the social body can learn something new – for a new attractor/algorithm to get installed… with a potential effect of higher collective awareness and more effective processing of complex information as a social system or or or…

Biofeedback: temporary technological additional “sense” for the body to learn something new about himself, also here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biofeedback

thinking about a group exercise where some kind of movement dynamic happens in the room – and then having a computer know the positions of everyone (infrared camera tracks LED on peoples head for instance) and on the underrun of a certain average value the light is changing or a sound is changing… so the collective gets an immediate feedback on what is happening in the room… or measuring everyones heartbeat and translating the collective beat into a tangible feedback in the room… and then let them process an emotional stimulus or transparent sharing or something… vast space to explore here :) and maybe the temporary additional sense does not have to be technical! it could also be as organic as a drummer sensing into the whole and adapting the beat…


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If tomorrow a bunch of sharks in the oceans unite with the plan of biting through all the transcontinental glas-fibre internet/telephone-cables at multiple spots and thereby basically switch of global connectedness on technical level for unforeseen time… what will happen / what will the reflection process surface that will start to pop up around the question what we as humanity learned from this period of global connectedness via electronic devices – what patterns will start to emerge in the paths that have been laid neurologically and social-communication-wise from this period of time?

new communication styles like the FB architecture or Tweets will find an expression in a more parallel-processing face2face/group communication

a global experience of interconnectedness will unite people locally

the neuronal imprints of this connectedness will open up channels for energetic long-distance communication

incredible potential in local group intelligence will be ignited as all the love and care and cleverness that has been floating in globally connected spheres will now blossom fully in face2face leadership

we were putting far too much energy into this medium in a time where other skills would have been much more needed

it was all expression of an evolutionary longing for other forms of communication and the feeling of connectedness

we learned our lesson and immense motivation is rising to use the opportunity more intentional when the glas-fibre cables will be repaired

local traditions and cultures will be re-ignited as people seek for ‘new’ anchors in their life

we learn to empower and ‘charge’ ambassadors to travel and carry on inspiration to other continents – knowledge sharing will be so much more focused and cared for… the buzz around millions of shallow signals is over and the meaningful and resonant signals will ping through


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this song makes me cry because of its intensity!! and while thinking about it i can also feel it, the consciousness that appears in its own reflection… songs, stories, encounters, artwork – all those packages of experience we allow our emotional body to resonate with… my Amygdala is flooding chemical messengers through my brain and i see my life in the perspective of a an arc of a dynamic that shows consistency of shape with the arc build into the package of the current experience… the bigger picture got scaled down into an horizon that i can grasp emotionally in the here and now and that informs my system with new motivation to live and think and form and create… so yes, loving to get soaked – but what happens if i plug out my earphones, can i prolong the trajectory of the experience? …speaking from the attractor in me wanting to explore how we are plattforms for processes… how can your longing and dance and suffering and joy prolong in me as you move into another space –

…to carry on the informed aura into the next moment and the next… stepping back and ahead to be the channel, be the tool, be the conductor… how big can we feel and what is the expansion of the context we can feel at once? if i am consciousness manifested through my unique expression… how many gates can be open at the same time to dissipate and integrate…

what we encounter is mirror, is symbol, is in consistency of shape with what is inside – the outside is the inside is the language of energy dynamics… enriched on the breath in and simplified on the breath out… constructions building over time as system evolving in systems… taking for granted and granted for taking… judgement, shyness, boldness – emotional constructs in the psycho-socio-space… keep the fire inside when outside is no space to see the fire… hold it, nurture it… the universe is co-developing in you… you are the leading edge of your story, sacred responsibility of fostering the unique seed in you… the emergence under the ground is massive… who are you without boundaries and in your fullest potential? who are we to align in supporting you to be this? we will meet us there…


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Out beyond ideas of paid jobs and unpaid jobs – there is value. We will meet us there.


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in the german beergarden i work we had TV screens set up for the football game tonight – so i experienced the whole wave of before, in it and after it (and germany lost!) from the ‘hosting the space’ perspective… oh wow, quite a show of tribal humanness!

cheer-leaders are taking their role, loud and quiet subgroups are forming… lifting the energy or sucking the excitement, slow noise-rising and abrupt reactions. then collective sharing of the brutal truth of having lost the game – frustration, anger, tears… “we” lost…

so obvious that football is the biggest global event of tribal feelings… we support our tribe… the remaining archetype of rituals to bond the group, it’s all there: singing together, sharing big emotions, feeling connected to millions of people watching… all the heavy complexity of life and social relations is broken down into a simple game with such clear frames that my emotional and social body can easily process it and synchronize themselves.

Also a form of strong invisible connections – people/groups receiving the show through a one-way channel of TV… nothing can flow back – but ‘knowing’ that millions are out there on the other end of the channel as well does make the back-flow unnecessary…

so friends… what other and especially so much more meaningful forms of collective rituals can/are we seeding now that will grow momentum over the years and decades… i sense lot of attractors out there have already begun to form such creatures…

maybe we can build the capacity to expand the ritual space more and more, maybe it can be present as an underlying tone all the time as we learn to not depend on rising and falling of a space to actually realize the energy between!


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such a sweet pain when imagination and the sense of potential seems so far greater than what the moment contains… endless branches of what-could-also-be blooming in all dimensions, trusting to live into it over time and loving the moment, this is where it all ends and begins :)


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wow’ed about the quantity of street-data google maps has to process? just struck by the simple insight of the actual amount of paved street laying there… billions and billions of tons of stone and bitumen (oil!) laid-out over the decades… and ‘ON TOP’ of all that we can drive to the next village to meet a friend…

feels like a flicker in hot air this extremely high level of luxury in the industrial age, all depending on the availability of cheap oil… what kind of celebration is the global hype on iPhone4??? people snoozing in crystal palaces of consumption and receiving individuality and salvation by choosing from products… the construction on top of which this can happen is meanwhile so high and fragile… what if one day the long and long production and transport chain for our food to the supermarket gets a hole? sweating under the desert sun with short breath and soon to realize the massive sunburn…

when will we be proud and collectively respected again for answering questions about what your skills are with “i can grow food for my community”, “i can build a wastewater treatment with plants” and “i know about forming a circle and rituals to hold it”


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a light mental/emotional operating system that loves to channel and catalyze beauty and can process & navigate heavy complexity with elegance


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may the unfolding of the creation surprise the creator and transcend its scope… obsolete to ‘achieve your goal’ when your playground transforms on the way


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communication spaces that are so broad, open and trusted that they can contain it all – no need for sharing meta-reflections, shadows, tics or the unspoken with someone else afterwards to make it complete, it all has a place in this 1&1 right here right now – this is where it all begins and radiates into our manifestations in the world…


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inspiration comes as bird landing on your shoulder… challenges can come as dark ink soaking you. (media/ads makes us look for the next catchy shining phrase & so weak in perseverance)… i call for more courage in letting your system get soaked with energy as heavy, new or confusing as it might be – trusting in your stable core & inviting the universe to re-pattern you, offering yourself as an evolutionary tool…


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scaling huge fabrics of correlation into realogies/storylines/packages that our emotional-mental bodies are able to intuitively click with, hold & process (e.g. a song that feels in the moment like shining beautiful light over your whole life)… how big and how small can you feel? & can you place a seed in my consciousness that expands my capability of feeling that big/small?… artists of human affection i invite

‎…inviting these artists to pollinate my system with stimuli that expands it’s matrix, for my body to bloom into the new space as experience is offering material to knead it in…


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Das Rad” movie – makes me think of the time-speed we perceive and how much slower or faster it also is.

Makes me wonder what we are potentially capable of processing and relating to time-wise. Peter Senge speaks about the gap of relating to our future emotionally.

Makes me curious to explore experiences that can widen the capability of relating to time – soaking in the shortest moments and letting the glimpse of their inner dynamic play out in me to sense into it from all sides… that yes. But how to “scale down” my plane-flight to the climate-impact it has, into a ‘package’ or a set of metaphorical embodied bridging-patterns that my body-mind can process and stimulates my intuition and emotions.

A fantastic practice i experienced in that realm was on a seminar with Joanna Macy. Sitting in double-circle; the outside circle was living in the now and the inner circle were humans in 200 years from now. Speaking in one-now to one-future human, we were guided through questions around “how was it to be in the time of the great turning” and the future humans spoke their gratitude that they are living because we made it possible. It was a really powerful and deeply touching experience for me and my sense is that this is a strong angle for meaningful perceptional attractors… stretching consciousness wide beyond daily scope… into time and space or the potential of a group/network…

What are practices/exercises that build capacity to feel in bigger context in bigger times?


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“emotional gap of relating to our future”… installing the structures/attractors in the gap for an organic bridge to click in


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transformational agreement: whenever you experience me in a lack of the ability of processing information or scope of consciousness please TELL ME, I want to hear smthg like ‘Benjamin, my sense is that this is beyond your capability‘ :)


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i see the tree of analogies of the addressed holon reaching through various layers and i invite association into the cross-interpretation and broadening of it


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Imagine that we as a team could share and spread new knowledge and learnings as fast and effective as we can do with gossip?” -Ane Price Mørk

gossip event/story-based, so somehow a condensed piece of interaction, either especially weird or climax of something… loaded with projections – travelling in group body, forming and growing, if not charged with new facts it looses touch and becomes this creature, not able to call back and hard to correct…

learning/knowledge-sharing different paste and targeted not so short-term, requires motivation to carry into leisure-mood

gossip is raising naturally up from interaction level to communication – knowledgesharing seems to need an effort to be pulled down from abstract space to communication

igniting the gossip-channels with meaningful snippets….

la la la


and if you want more, you may continue reading in this very unfinished and hopelessly confusing and inspring document :)

Art of Hosting Berlin

“If the group is an art form of the future, then convening groups is an artistry
we must cultivate to fully harvest the promise of the future.”
Jacob Needleman, et al Centered on the Edge
For the 2nd time in Germany and finally in the Hub Berlin – “The Art of Hosting conversations that matter / participatory Leadership”. In the beginning of August 50 people from 8 countries gathered under the theme of “Bringing down our inner walls” to contemplate four days on questions like “where do you feel you inner walls? Which are helpful and which are ready to get rid off?” by experiencing and even facilitating methods like world cafe, open space and appreciative inquiry. The seven professional and experienced AoH-practicioners were thereby switching roles between space-holders, teacher, coach, client and participant. Fastly the minds were filled with self reflections, the hearts were filled with connectedness and the Hub
got filled with colourful painted and brainstormed papers – till today you can find little sheets with inspirational gifts from the participants at various places in the Hub. Thanks to Benjamin’s continuing online-harvesting there is a big treasury of photos, videos and text saving the energy and content of the four days. Together with some great remote inputs from AoH alumnis who were holding online presence from time to time. To discover and interact yourself goto the facebook page “Art of Hosting Berlin” (bit.ly/AoH_Berlin-FB) and the Twitter account @AoH_live. For more information, mailinglist and the upcoming AoH’s goto: http://www.artofhosting.org
Zum zweiten Mal in Deutschland und endlich im Hub Berlin – “The Art of Hosting conversations that matter / participatory Leadership”. Anfang August fanden sich 50 Menschen aus 8 Ländern unter dem Thema “Bringing Down Our Inner Walls” zusammen, um sich vier Tage lang Fragen wie “Wo spürst du deine inneren Mauern? Welche sind davon hilfreich und welche können getrost eingerissen werden?” ganz persönlich zu stellen und dabei unterschiedlichste Methoden wie World Cafe, Open Space und Appreciative Inquiry sowohl aus der Rolle des Teilnehmers als auch des facilitators kennenzulernen. Die sieben professionellen und erfahrenen AoH-Praktizierer wechselte dabei elegant die Rollen zwischen Raumhalter, Lehrer, Coach, Klient und Teilnehmer. Schnell füllten sich die Köpfe mit Selbstreflektionen, die Herzen mit Verbundenheit und der Hub mit bunt bemaltem und vollgebrainstormtem Papieren – noch heute kannn mensch sich an verschiedenen Stellen über kleine Zettel mit Inspirationsgeschenken von Teilnehmern freuen. Durch Benjamin’s kontinuierliches online-harvesting ist eine umfangreiche und lebendige Foto-, Video- und Textdokumentation der Energien und Inhalte der vier Tage entstanden. Mitsamt einiger spannender Ferninputs von AoH Alumnis, die punktuell online Präsenz in der Zeit hielten. Zum selber durchstöbern und interagieren bitte die facebook page “Art of Hosting Berlin” (bit.ly/AoH_Berlin-FB) und den Twitter account @AoH_live anbrowsen :)
Für mehr Informationen, Mailinglist und die nächsten AoH’s: http://www.artofhosting.org
Hier ein Auszug aus Rolf Schneidereit’s Sicht der vier Tage. Vielen Dank dafür!
Im Moment fühle ich eine tiefe Verbundenheit mit vielen Menschen – die ich dort kennen gelernt habe und über sie hinaus. Es hat etwas davon in meine eigene höchste Zukunftsmöglichkeit einzutreten, in einer Gruppe, in der auch die anderen Individuen in dieser Bewegung sind. Es ist wie Otto Scharmer schreibt:
„Das soziale Feld verbindet uns nicht nur untereinander, es verbindet uns auch mit uns selbst …” […] Im Einsatz war ein reicher Strauß von Methoden: World Cafe und Open Space, Appreciative Inquiry, Aufstellung, Zweierrunden, Triangle, Zirkel. Der Prozess war weitgehend offen gestaltet: Zunehmend wurden wir Teilnehmer zu Akteuren, die Inhalte „hosteten” und das „harvesting” übernahmen. Es entstand ein Feld des Gebens. Eine wunderschöne Szene am Ende der Veranstaltung: Zwei Facilitatoren aus Belgien malten einer jungen Spanierin, die einen Hub in Madrid gründen will, ein Plakat mit Kreativmethoden für ihr Team und die anstehenden Aufgaben. Ohne jeden Vorbehalt schütteten sie das ganze Füllhorn ihres Know-hows aus.
Für mich war es ein reicher Lernprozess. […] Beispiel Gläser: Am ersten Tag lief die Spülmaschine fast nonstop nur für die Gläser, weil wir uns ständig neue nahmen. Am vierten Tag hatten fast alle mit Tesakrepp und Markern ihre Gläser an der Glasstation beschriftet und die Spülmina hatte auch mal Pause.
Wie unterschiedlich wir sind! Es gab große und kleine Menschen, dicke und dünne, mehr intellektuell und mehr emotional orientierte, introvertierte und extrovertierte … wie leicht kann doch unsere Unterschiedlichkeit zu Ablehnung und Konflikt führen. Für mich bot Art of Hosting einen Rahmen, in dem diese Verschiedenartigkeit zum Reichtum wurde und ich mich selbst gut aufgehoben und zum weiteren Beschreiten des Weges inspiriert fühlte.
Ein Gedanke noch dazu, der mir während der Rückfahrt kam:
Wenn es sein darf
wie es ist
kann es werden
was es sein kannAr

Art of Hosting “Bringing Down Inner Walls” in The Hub Berlin

“If the group is an art form of the future, then convening groups is an artistry

we must cultivate to fully harvest the promise of the future.”

Jacob Needleman, et al Centered on the Edge

For the 2nd time in Germany and finally in the Hub Berlin – “The Art of Hosting conversations that matter / participatory Leadership”. In the beginning of August 50 people from 8 countries gathered under the theme of “Bringing down our inner walls” to contemplate four days on questions like “where do you feel you inner walls? Which are helpful and which are ready to get rid off?” by experiencing and even facilitating methods like world cafe, open space and appreciative inquiry. The seven professional and experienced AoH-practicioners were thereby switching roles between space-holders, teacher, coach, client and participant. Fastly the minds were filled with self reflections, the hearts were filled with connectedness and the Hub got filled with colourful painted and brainstormed papers – till today you can find little sheets with inspirational gifts from the participants at various places in the Hub. Thanks to Benjamin’s continuing online-harvesting there is a big treasury of photos, videos and text saving the energy and content of the four days. Together with some great remote inputs from AoH alumnis who were holding online presence from time to time. To discover and interact yourself goto the facebook page “Art of Hosting Berlin” (bit.ly/AoH_Berlin-FB) and the Twitter account @AoH_live. For more information, mailinglist and the upcoming AoH’s goto: http://www.artofhosting.org

Zum zweiten Mal in Deutschland und endlich im Hub Berlin – “The Art of Hosting conversations that matter / participatory Leadership”. Anfang August fanden sich 50 Menschen aus 8 Ländern unter dem Thema “Bringing Down Our Inner Walls” zusammen, um sich vier Tage lang Fragen wie “Wo spürst du deine inneren Mauern? Welche sind davon hilfreich und welche können getrost eingerissen werden?” ganz persönlich zu stellen und dabei unterschiedlichste Methoden wie World Cafe, Open Space und Appreciative Inquiry sowohl aus der Rolle des Teilnehmers als auch des facilitators kennenzulernen. Die sieben professionellen und erfahrenen AoH-Praktizierer wechselte dabei elegant die Rollen zwischen Raumhalter, Lehrer, Coach, Klient und Teilnehmer. Schnell füllten sich die Köpfe mit Selbstreflektionen, die Herzen mit Verbundenheit und der Hub mit bunt bemaltem und vollgebrainstormtem Papieren – noch heute kannn mensch sich an verschiedenen Stellen über kleine Zettel mit Inspirationsgeschenken von Teilnehmern freuen. Durch Benjamin’s kontinuierliches online-harvesting ist eine umfangreiche und lebendige Foto-, Video- und Textdokumentation der Energien und Inhalte der vier Tage entstanden. Mitsamt einiger spannender Ferninputs von AoH Alumnis, die punktuell online Präsenz in der Zeit hielten. Zum selber durchstöbern und interagieren bitte die facebook page “Art of Hosting Berlin” (bit.ly/AoH_Berlin-FB) und den Twitter account @AoH_live anbrowsen :)

Für mehr Informationen, Mailinglist und die nächsten AoH’s: http://www.artofhosting.org

Hier ein Auszug aus Rolf Schneidereit’s Sicht der vier Tage. Vielen Dank dafür!

Im Moment fühle ich eine tiefe Verbundenheit mit vielen Menschen – die ich dort kennen gelernt habe und über sie hinaus. Es hat etwas davon in meine eigene höchste Zukunftsmöglichkeit einzutreten, in einer Gruppe, in der auch die anderen Individuen in dieser Bewegung sind. Es ist wie Otto Scharmer schreibt:

„Das soziale Feld verbindet uns nicht nur untereinander, es verbindet uns auch mit uns selbst …” […] Im Einsatz war ein reicher Strauß von Methoden: World Cafe und Open Space, Appreciative Inquiry, Aufstellung, Zweierrunden, Triangle, Zirkel. Der Prozess war weitgehend offen gestaltet: Zunehmend wurden wir Teilnehmer zu Akteuren, die Inhalte „hosteten” und das „harvesting” übernahmen. Es entstand ein Feld des Gebens. Eine wunderschöne Szene am Ende der Veranstaltung: Zwei Facilitatoren aus Belgien malten einer jungen Spanierin, die einen Hub in Madrid gründen will, ein Plakat mit Kreativmethoden für ihr Team und die anstehenden Aufgaben. Ohne jeden Vorbehalt schütteten sie das ganze Füllhorn ihres Know-hows aus.

Für mich war es ein reicher Lernprozess. […] Beispiel Gläser: Am ersten Tag lief die Spülmaschine fast nonstop nur für die Gläser, weil wir uns ständig neue nahmen. Am vierten Tag hatten fast alle mit Tesakrepp und Markern ihre Gläser an der Glasstation beschriftet und die Spülmina hatte auch mal Pause.

Wie unterschiedlich wir sind! Es gab große und kleine Menschen, dicke und dünne, mehr intellektuell und mehr emotional orientierte, introvertierte und extrovertierte … wie leicht kann doch unsere Unterschiedlichkeit zu Ablehnung und Konflikt führen. Für mich bot Art of Hosting einen Rahmen, in dem diese Verschiedenartigkeit zum Reichtum wurde und ich mich selbst gut aufgehoben und zum weiteren Beschreiten des Weges inspiriert fühlte.

Ein Gedanke noch dazu, der mir während der Rückfahrt kam:

Wenn es sein darf

wie es ist

kann es werden

was es sein kann

Students of Sustainability

Students of Sustainabilty (SOS) 2009 in 7Linden
Two dreams were woven together and attracted 45 “Students of Sustainability” from 8 countries to the Ecovillage of Sieben Linden, to meet for a week in July 2009 at an international young people’s week. 1.) The call for an ‘international’ (after  years of German only) building week with the purpose of building a tree house at 7Linden and 2.) The motivation, born in a Dragon Dreaming circle at the GEN assembly last year, to ‘unite the diversity of young people who care’ under the title of SOS.
Mind: Knowing about the potential and connections we are bringing with us and feeling the commitment to support each other’s growth in these crucial and exciting times, we did a community mapping process (http://bit.ly/SOSnetMap) to make the connections in our middle visible, gave each other teachings, and shared thoughts about Transition Towns, permaculture, communication methods, community tools, open space, world cafe, local currencies, and many topics more. Together, we envisioned the values that may guide us by dancing into our future. We illuminated education paths and explored the meshworks that we are woven in or that we co-create. We exchanged thoughts, reached out to know about communities of practice, played useful and useless games and threw the masterplan for the world revolution off the cuff ;-)
Heart: The borders between organisers/facilitators and participants were fading quickly and we experienced a self-organized, connected, and nourishing community of people our age. Music, dancing, art, singing, hugging, and enjoying the delicious vegan food…
Hand: Caring for the land that hosted us, we added value to the space by hands-on-experiences in the diverse leading edge field of sustainable building approaches in 7Linden with carpentry, clay buildings, cooking and gardening…
Afterwards, quite a bunch of us kept riding the gathering-wave into the GEN assembly in Finland, respectively to the ‘ 360° exploring community’ conference in Sweden. Carrying energy from our field into the next filaments… sensing a global net, emerging slowly but surely to give birth to a world of collective intelligence, joy and healing *
We will share online presence and meet face2face from time to time and will meet again for SOS 2010, probably in Damanhur. A website is in progress; until then you can find more information and pictures linked at twitter.com/SOSnet
Benjamin Aaron Degenhart
Lived in 7Linden, works for The Hub Berlin, team member of the Institute for Participatory Design and is starting at the KaosPilot school in Denmark.

Students of Sustainabilty (SOS) 2009 in 7Linden

Two dreams were woven together and attracted 45 “Students of Sustainability” from 8 countries to the Ecovillage of Sieben Linden, to meet for a week in July 2009 at an international young people’s week. 1.) The call for an ‘international’ (after  years of German only) building week with the purpose of building a tree house at 7Linden and 2.) The motivation, born in a Dragon Dreaming circle at the GEN assembly last year, to ‘unite the diversity of young people who care’ under the title of SOS.

Mind: Knowing about the potential and connections we are bringing with us and feeling the commitment to support each other’s growth in these crucial and exciting times, we did a community mapping process (http://bit.ly/SOSnetMap) to make the connections in our middle visible, gave each other teachings, and shared thoughts about Transition Towns, permaculture, communication methods, community tools, open space, world cafe, local currencies, and many topics more. Together, we envisioned the values that may guide us by dancing into our future. We illuminated education paths and explored the meshworks that we are woven in or that we co-create. We exchanged thoughts, reached out to know about communities of practice, played useful and useless games and threw the masterplan for the world revolution off the cuff ;-)

Heart: The borders between organisers/facilitators and participants were fading quickly and we experienced a self-organized, connected, and nourishing community of people our age. Music, dancing, art, singing, hugging, and enjoying the delicious vegan food…

Hand: Caring for the land that hosted us, we added value to the space by hands-on-experiences in the diverse leading edge field of sustainable building approaches in 7Linden with carpentry, clay buildings, cooking and gardening…

Afterwards, quite a bunch of us kept riding the gathering-wave into the GEN assembly in Finland, respectively to the ‘ 360° exploring community’ conference in Sweden. Carrying energy from our field into the next filaments… sensing a global net, emerging slowly but surely to give birth to a world of collective intelligence, joy and healing *

We will share online presence and meet face2face from time to time and will meet again for SOS 2010, probably in Damanhur. A website is in progress; until then you can find more information and pictures linked at twitter.com/SOSnet

Benjamin Aaron Degenhart

Lived in 7Linden, works for The Hub Berlin, team member of the Institute for Participatory Design and is starting at the KaosPilot school in Denmark.

Realogy Questionnaire

Reality + Analogy = Realogy … created May 2009 in Santa Cruz, California. Some questions that arose in my linguistic module by sensing into meaningful questions to find out about a humans core. Asked it some people…


Q In what space are you right now?

Q Easy one to start – can you give me your favourite quotes and your favourite thoughts from the top of your head.

Q I am going to ask you a question, and i don´t want to answer it… yet – i want you to sense into the question and describe me what is happening in you – “are you dancing in your passion”?

Q describe yourself in your highest potential.

Q Ask Benjamin what he is seeing in you right now (potential) and tell me how it was to hear that.

Q When you hear the term “sacred questions”, are there some coming to your mind that you would name sacred questions?

Q Is there a question you don´t want to get asked?

Q Ok, here is an answer: “mhm, yes thats a good point to consider”. I want you to find a question where this answer would match.
“well… i am on my way”
“i would love to, but i just can´t do it”
“its all about enjoying the presence”
“that is a beautiful question, thank you for asking it”
Find two questions for this answer: “the threshold is key”
“my assumption is that they have too different energy patterns”

Q Give me three questions, which would be for you the most effective ones, to directly digg to a persons core.

Q If you were allowed to change one modul from your character for free, what would that be?

Q Is there someting like your vision, goal, dream that you feel you are living into?

Q How would my experience of you be, if you are shining in your brightest light, radiating pure energy, being fully alignet with your passion?

Q Who would you like to meet, when you are in your highest energy, highly self-confident and world-embracing? What would you like to do, to manifest in this energy?

Q How do you come in your energy? What is triggering that?

Q You have 5sec on a stage where every human on earth will watch you – what would you do and say?

Q If i ask you about “mindtools”, what could that mean for you?

Q What do you do, when you want to memorize something, how can you fix something on your inner screen? Can you share about creative braintechniques that work for you?

Q What happens in you when you hear all these questions and answer them?

Q What is the most typical social role you find yourself in?

Q What other roles have you experienced with yourself – enjoyed or hated it?

Q What helps you feel safe in a group of unkown people?

Q If you go with one known person into a group of unkown people – how do you behave, is your energy flow reaching out to the group through your friend or are you exploring the new social by your own?

Q If you are totally new in an environment – maybe another country. Can you say out of your experience if there are patterns or roles that you are recreating around you?

Q What are the areas / safe islands of expression, where you feel drawn to? (music, emails, art…)

Q We are before the BigBang – you are god(ess) and you can choose which area(s) of the unborn world you take responsibility to create.

Q Give me three of your good friends and what area they would create in this unborn world.

Q How would you describe yourself as a landscape?

Q If i want to get an impression of you by clicking around on websites – which would have to be the google search request where the resulting web-pages give me an impression of your interests?

Q Give me some more keywords about your interests.

Q You might have friends who are travelling and get to know people all over the planet – how does the [name]-space look like, that you would like to implement them in their social-brain. In which situations, which people and what keywords/tags should ring their bell to forward you these contact or information?

Q Who of your friends would describe your potential best?

Q What would she/he tell me about your potential?

Q Is there something you wanna add?

Q If you were dying in the next minutes – who would you like to be the last person who holds your hand?

Q What would you tell her/him – with your last breath?