my FB musings since July

since mid July, the latest one is on the top. the last harvest of this kind is here. the “x” links to the post on my FB wall.


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‎”you treating this as a problem might be the issue” -Zaid Hassan (Reos Partners). grateful for his process/lecture with Team16 today! extreme acceleration of feeding reflection and meta-reflection right into the process and the other way round… mirroring the team… brilliant!

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My life is my message.” -Gandhi

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is longing to improve my abilities to invite for co-creation… leaning into the field… offering ones own heat/stuckness with the invitation to breath fresh air in – it won’t happen when the mental expectations are of such nature that require ground and sharp guidelines… can we be attracted from a broader space? can you define where heat starts and stops?? as soon as material is in the room we can shape it further, it needs to get out there though… i start to react allergic to narrow entry-gates to a field and to anything that tries to predict or hold the outcome of a process within a certain playground, purpose, desired outcome – i don’t see the universe working like this, everything DOES have echos and analogies on other levels and in best case goes beyond anything known…

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dear friends close and far, thank you deeply for the spoken and unspoken birthday wishes and for being on this planet at this time… i feel humble and grateful scrolling down my profile and letting the warm shower of 80+ posts, messages, emails and gifts from so many different circles and hearts into my awareness… you know, i actually considered taking my Bday-date off from FB a week ago because i am not a fan of FB-encouraged floods of Bday greetings and i am not into the culture around Bday’s. I always have that feeling i rather want to give and get celebration and appreciation when the causing stimulus comes from inside or a thought/connection/condensation/intensification and is not tied to an external re-occurring event… well, i kinda still have that feeling around it – but you also taught me how beautiful it can be to just receive love and i felt so deeply seen by many of you in who i am…!! To my day; i helped cleaning the KaosPilot school after a gorgeous welcoming party for Team17, then i had quality time with myself, have connected to my parents on the phone and did a remote-meditation with my mum where we span a light-bridge between us and reconnect to my birth 24years ago. onwards into possibilites, for a lifetime of magic…

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‎”there is never nothing going on – there are no ordinary moments” / “you practice Gymnastics – i practice everything” / “stop gathering information from outside yourself and start gathering it from inside yourself” / “i know this is a scary moment for you – are you paying attention to it?” / “accept that you don’t control what’s happening to you” …from the movie Peaceful Warrior. thanks Theis, great one!

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‎[purpose > people > task > communication > rhythm] … don’t take it personal, it’s information about the system / offer your own presence to the group – sourcing …
first lecture-session in process semester with Paul & David is over, excited about it and hungry for more…

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a swarm video that i cut together 2,5yrs ago for a “systemic group dynamic” workshop that Markus and me offered. we were nerdy about ‘key’ patterns of dynamics on psychic and social level – Markus programmed some cool visualizing stuff on systems behavior and we invented games that spark reflections on the threshold between group/psychic/computer/[…] patterns…. a dance with analogies – with realogies :) http://vimeo.com/7313290

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transpatterning, tresholding, innowilding, lucentiberating, hybridising, unbuttoning, interweaving, beyonspanning, attractalyzing…

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about the stretching of patterns that are meant to be alive only in the moment of transition… when you pick someone up on the trainstation and you spot each other with 50m distance, isn’t it funny how you both look and smile and walk and look away and look again, and maybe shout something over the last meters because it’s a slightly uncomfortable stretch until you can hug each other? similar with waving someone goodbye and then the train keeps not departing :) you look away, stop waving, start waving again – and finally when the train starts driving the full waving/smiling-pattern can be performed. The silence after you spoke, sitting with it or filling it with random bla (sometimes actually you yourself will start entering the counter-part/critical reflection of what you just said) until someone relieves you. An embarrasing moment, a unintendedly spoken truth – the focus on you… will you be with the tension or are you trying to smear the situation away? … and then – what if you make it your practice to consciously breathe and hold the inner tension while the outside seems to break away, can you prolong the pattern so that it can go on the next level or find an honorable end?

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‎”i’d tell them its like global traffic system with different types of transportation, but choosing your route you have to do yourself. there are route planners, but still the impulse needs to come from you!”, ” you will find favorite routes with great views & fellow travelers. easy to go for the fast highways – but watch out that those don’t flush away your emerging sharing impulses too fast, some seeds need to grow first. “testing on resonance” sometimes can be demotivating because only you can understand at this stage. for organic/authentic growth “don’t try to be interesting – be interested & don’t wait to be understood, try to understand”. don’t control all channels & signals – dive trough, trust the right things show up, like a horoscope, listen loud, appreciate” (on Tw in reply to http://bit.ly/d8IdVP from dear Fernanda)

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i don’t like this situations where i seem to be expected to remember something, but i don’t and feel too embarrassed/disrespectful to ask straight for that missing information, i rather find sneaky ways of letting the person speak it again… you know that too, don’t you? can we maybe all agree that it is OK to forget things we tell each other without thinking we are not important to each other?

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there is a difference in being innovative withIN a system/structure (making yourself comfortably fitting in and building an identity by combining the given mental and physical products in your unique way) and being innovative in pointing beyond conventions and to create new… i think we need to train ourselves more and more to naturally let the authority of given systems slip off from us and re-utilize them again as ressources – your thinking, feeling and aspiring is bigger…
in the moment you stop accepting the authority of any system/entity/constellation that is shrinking your possibilities – it might still be there, but it becomes a disturbing challenge that you will eventually grow out of.

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alluring the unsaid into a conversation is one of the greatest masteries – there is the unsaid you don’t even know about – and there is the unsaid you know very well about, but you can’t find a way to bring it in… either because it would break the flow of the conversation unnaturally or because you are ashamed by it or the fear of rejection, or because you know that the other needs to experience himself…
and then there are combinations like the unsaid you know about but not the other or vice versa, and there are conversations where you both are sitting on something unsaid… however, i like those best which come close to no known unsaid and the unkown unsaid is strongly invited to pass the threshold into our awareness…

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we almost all move and share within little ecosystems of social circles with certain values… it’s worth taking a honest scan though for yourself if you get to experience a full spectrum of interpersonal dynamics, because… i could imagine your soul would like you to get the full social workout, just for a broad development you know ;)

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what do you seek to see when you look? …actively fishing for affirmation of a concept you have, making it fit in? passively through various filters of values, expectations, comparisons with memories and such? or nothing but the pure truth of what is there to be seen? :)

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saw a guy with a t-shirt saying “nobody trains to loose” on the trainstation… i started to smile very big and couldn’t stop, he looked at me irritated. passing by him i told him in my mind “oh my friend, this is exactly what i am doing – i am training to loose. i am training to loose the concept of competition!” … went into my train and thought; maybe i should have said it loud :) when we stimulate, encourage and hold each other to unleash our raw untamed wilderness together we don’t need the excuse of competition to embody those energies our system is longing for from time to time…

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who are you in the HERE? who are you in the NEAR? who are you in the FAR? … both in time and place, both in memories and in future projections … (hear-near-far, inspired by Dylan Newcombs work www.uzazu.org)

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between stimulus and response lies the dignity of the human being” -someone … somehow that quote my dad told me rings my bells … what IS that space between stimulus and response? does the way get shorter between those the more we are feeling trusted and safe? what levels of privacy do we allow in whose presence? can we be so natural and transparent with each other that the space between you and me IS like the space between stimulus and response in me? the same curiosity of what thought might bubble next into my consciousness towards what happens in this other human-system over there – i open all my gates and witness that vibration, sinking into and following the swirls the universe is taking in you and me and between and beyond… let us BE there for each other, plattforms and containers, holding and caring, initiating and transforming – we are in this together. and the togetherness is of a circle facing outwards! supportive energy is flowing in our backs, we are safe and look outwards on our unique playgrounds ahead of us… and there is a wider circle of elders around us facing inwards that support you in your exploration without needing to understand you but they make sure you are connected to the collective and to the source… green – yellow – turquoise (the quote is from Viktor Frankl btw)

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waiting for the day g/fb/tw open a “department for empathic evolutionary weaving” …i am also happy to get hired for creating it otherwise ;) imagine all the tremendous amount of data about our identities and relationships and circles not being used for personalized marketing but for strategic meaningful weaving! imagine getting a message from facebook saying “our value-based community analysis program has indicated you amongst others as knot in your social field and we want to ask you if we can show your latest post to a person in South America who has a similar value-profile than you”… or imagine more intelligent friend-suggestions based on value and circle-matching and strategic bridge building amongst communities…

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when you deepen in one field you deepen your sense of other fields as well

you can see the universe from every point in the universe!
…when you dive down in one realm you can overlook the world from another vertical position and get a clearer insight into other depths, other than “your profession”.
…you lay the blue print in you for the dynamic of growing something as your extended body.
…recently inspired by Karate Kid! when he has to put up and down his jacket for thousand times until he gives it up frustrated – and then the master attacks him and he is totally surprised how he defends himself automatically and very fast, because the movement-patterns are the same as he used with putting up and down his jacket! and the master says: KungFu lives in everything!

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memories as ressources not as burdens, dreams as motivators not attachements – when our energy lines burst out into the past and the future we can learn to do this in a light and self-empowering way – not in a heavy and draining way

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thinking about wounds… and how some people are almost overhelpful and worried when they witness a physical injury of a friend (which again some ‘victims’ really enjoy and others would rather hide their fresh wounds to not land in that overattention) — and this in contrast to receiving/causing/witnessing nonphysicalwounds… there is so much (unconscious?) cutting and lacerating going on, isn’t it? i know that we can be so much more aware on what is going on on energetic and subtle levels… dare to care :)

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stones under water are falling like leaves from a tree – enjoying to witness their playful dance towards the ground – following a wobbly movement into the depth. would love to record the trajectories and make a wallpaper from it…

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getting wild in greek mountains… raw, barefoot, running, jumping high and diving deep, climbing rocks, skin on stone… this is me praying in nature’s cathedral!

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sending you greetings from Greece with this deep song from Akasa Tseng, echoing the voice of whales… as i grow wings under the sea, watching the water surface moving from below and the air from my lungs bubbling up… letting my body remember swimming in my mothers womb… and memories in my cells from long ago as our ancestors were living under water…

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Benjamin Aaron Degenhart

Currently pursuing a Masters in Computational Science and Engineering at TU Munich.

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